firthgal: (uther morgana - hands)
Augh, this is so utterly perfect:



I will forever hate season 8 for not following through with this fucked up ship. Just... season 8 had SO MUCH POTENTIAL, and then it turned out nothing like what anyone had wanted for the ending of Dexter. Just, blech.
firthgal: (daniel betty - new beginning)
So... I've started using my Tumblr. A little bit. Still don't like the format, but it's all I've got since LJ refuses to have a fandom revival. *siiiiiigh* I hate that it's nearly impossible to converse with people. You just scroll and heart things and then talk to yourself on your own blog. I guess it's just pure blogging that I don't like. I miss having back and forths with people. But, Tumblr is good for pretty pics/graphics/vids and spoilers. But I feel so exposed every time I post something. Can't control who sees it and who doesn't. But anyway, if you're interested, my fandom blatherings will probably be posted there from now on (except for the more detailed stuff, which will probably still be posted here):

http://firthgal.tumblr.com/

My page is ugly because I have no idea how to change the settings, but at least you can read it (most Tumblr blogs have text that is so incredibly tiny that even my text zoom can't make it readable).

Anyway, I am still obsessing over Dexter, and I am so freaking happy that the latest crop of episodes have inspired fandom to make so many incredible vids:



Auuuuuuuuugh, augh augh augh, so much perfection! The voice overs during the instrumental bit in the last couple minutes are especially soul-wrenching, because OMG the parallels. So many parallels between them that I was vaguely aware of but now are so clear to me. I mean, sometimes Dexter says stuff and I'm like, "Didn't Deb say that to him a couple seasons back?" but I'm not quite sure and I kind of just forget about it, but then this vid confirms it all and it makes me go, "Wow, Dexter really was listening to her. Dexter really does love her." Not that I think he will ever romantically love her (he just can't move her out of the "sister" box that he has her in in his brain), but what he feels for her is stronger than anything he's ever felt about anybody, including Lumen and Hannah (and Rita. I hate that Rita never even registers in Dexter's brain when he talks about love, because the show spent years on him developing genuine feelings for her, but she's basically out of sight out of mind, meaning that all she ever was to him was a cover, which I don't believe). ANYWAY, Deb and Dex are dysfunctional and they are both complete messes but they will always be drawn together no matter what comes between them. Deb freaking tried to kill him and he was only mad for like half a day and then he melted when she said, "I can't imagine my life without you in it." GOD, I LOVE THEM.

Another vid of perfection that basically illustrates everything I've just said:



And a slightly fluffy one, kind of, maybe, not really, but it's pretty:



Also, I saw an interview clip on YouTube where Jennifer Carpenter said that she has always played Deb as having a crush on Dexter but not knowing what it was and that it made sense for the character because she has a level of intimacy with Dexter that she's never been able to achieve with any other man. And, to be honest, I've always felt like Deb was a little too into Dexter, but I never really shipped them until maybe season 5. She had just lost Lundy, who she thought was the love of her life, and he had just lost Rita and Deb was clinging onto Dexter just a little too hard and being really territorial over him and I kind of felt the shipping feelings, but I just assumed that she was projecting her own pain onto Dexter and getting offended over his non-feelings about Rita's death, but then season 6 happened. And I became obsessed, because OMG it just makes so much sense for the character and it's so heartbreaking because Dexter just can't give her what she's looking for and she's freaking out about being in love with her brother, and then in season 7 she has to learn to love him for everything that he is and not everything that she wants him to be, and then in season 8 she's dealing with self-loathing and hating him for doing this to her and hating that she still loves him to death despite everything. Guh. GUH! I love them.

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Jul. 13th, 2013 02:10 am
firthgal: (daniel betty - new beginning)
I have done nothing (aside from work) but watch Dexter/Deb vids for the past two days. WHAT IS MY LIFE? Oooooh, it feels so good to finally have a fandom again! I still despise Tumblr, so my fandom experience is limited, but I'm trying. Oh, am I trying! I miss LJ fandom culture so damn much. *cries* But anyway, I am so very happy to finally be passionate about a fandom again. I think the last time I was this fascinated by a ship was... Uther/Morgana? So, that was awhile ago. IDEK when Dex/Deb captured my heart so thoroughly, but I suspect that I was even shipping them without realizing it back in season 5 (I hated Dexter/Lumen with a passion. I used the excuse that it was because I was bitter over Rita's death. Pret-ty sure it was because Deb and Dexter were being all parenty with Harrison and Deb was all "Blech" towards Lumen and I was totally shipping Deb/Dex and feeling wrong about it). But then, well, Deb's therapist suggested that she might be in love with Dexter and everything about her entire character trajectory just made sense. And their love is so painfully beautiful and confusing. And I love that through the entire show it has always been Deb struggling to hold onto Dexter, but now it's the other way around and we are finally seeing the depth of Dexter's love for her. He's never really understood what he felt for Deb, but his little tryst with that Hannah chick where he supposedly fell in love for the first time ever, OMG (what about Rita, you douche?!) made him at least recognize the feeling of love, and he chose Deb over her without even thinking about it, so maybe, juuuuuuust maybe he'll realize that he legit loves Deb more than anything in the world. He even put Harrison in danger because he was so off the handle about Deb in the first ep of season 8. Guh, I just want them to find each other again and accept each other and love each other for all that they are and I want them to do this soon because this is the last season and I can't have them being at odds with each other through all 12 eps. But... yeah, they probably won't make up until one (or both) of them is on the brink of death in the very last episode. *sigh* But here, have some pretty vids:



SO FLIPPIN' BEAUTIFUL.

More beauty under the cut )

Augh, too much angst. Here's some beautiful, beautiful fluff:



*melts*
firthgal: (giles buffy - angsty i need you hug)
Remember when I made a post about the perfect fanvid song for Game of Thrones? Well, I was wrong, it was meant to be for Dexter. That song shouts Dexter/Deb all the way, especially after watching the first two eps of season 8. OH MY GOD, WHY DID I WATCH? WHY DIDN'T I WAIT UNTIL THE ENTIRE SEASON HAS AIRED? AUUUUUUUGH. I managed to wait last season, but I couldn't this time. I had to see how the show dealt with the fallout of Deb killing La Guerta. Deb is reacting pretty much as expected, but Dexter, OMG, Dexter. I knew he loved her. I freaking knew it. God, his face every time she told him to stay out of her life. HE CAN'T, DEB. HE IS NOT DEXTER WITHOUT HIS DEB. Guh. Guh guh guh. If you had told me back in season 1 that I would be shipping Dexter/Deb I would have looked at you like you were nuts (wait, would I? I need to go back and look). But now? OMG, I love them to death. They are so messed up on every level. I always knew that Deb would be Dexter's downfall, but I always thought it would be because she'd end up arresting him. WRONG. He is so super obsessed with her at this point that he just can't function and she's a freaking mess because of her guilt and disgust with herself and I have this terrible feeling that one of them is going to die this season. Well, obviously Dexter is going to either die or end up in jail since this is the last season, but... he may end up dying trying to protect Deb. Or Deb will end up dying trying to protect him (way more likely). IDK. But yeah, this song is so fitting for them, especially from Deb's POV, because Dexter has always been this oasis for her and now she hates him but wants to love him like she used to and it's pure torture and she just wants to die.



Don’t cry over me.

I know it’s a dark cave and even though it’s far from heaven
Maybe this could be my haven.

Don’t cry over me.

I know it hurts you when I fucking shiver
Well, trust me I was such a strong believer
But what’s the point of searching for that halo
My eyes are blinded and my heart is shallow.

It’s getting worse and worse as I think deeper
It’s just like staring at a burning river
Well, now it’s time stop. Just pull the trigger
I want to end it all. I want it over.
firthgal: (Andy - OMG)
I just finished season 6 of Dexter. That last scene, HOLY FREAKING CRAP. I so can't wait to see how it all plays out next season. He's going to have to kill Deb, isn't he? (so that he can be there for Harrison and not in prison) I can't see Deb accepting it, especially after her little "I'm in love with Dexter" revelation. Which, by the way, was a super awkward storyline, yet totally fascinating. I mean, I've always crack!shipped them, but I never actually thought that I wanted to see it happen on screen. But then it happened on screen, and... I kind of liked it? But I was also freaked out by it at the same time. I don't know, both Deb and Dexter are so screwed up that it just works for their characters, but I think it was thrown in there purely to explore whether Deb can accept who Dexter really is. And I can't see Dexter returning her feelings. Ever. But then, Dexter has never really understood his feelings for Deb, and he has no clue about the difference between familial love and romantic love or any kind of love, so it's not a stretch for the show to say that what Dexter feels for her isn't exactly familial. But... Deb admitting her love to him would just cause confusion and bring chaos into his very structured life, and he wouldn't be able to deal. But I guess that's not even their biggest issue at the moment. I just... I can't get over the fact that the show actually went there with Deb and Dexter, and because it did it just made that last scene all the more gut-punching. I just... I can't... WHEN IS THE SHOW COMING BACK? I hate cliffhangers.

ETA: The teaser for season 7, eep!



I love how it keeps showing them as one half of the same person. Augh, god, I think that last scene coupled with this teaser has made me an all out Deb/Dexter shipper.
firthgal: (dexter)
Just finished watching season 5 of Dexter. Jonny Lee Miller was suitably creepy. I've only ever seen him in Emma and Eli Stone, and this role was so drastically different from those that I didn't even recognize him until his third or fourth episode. Just... dude was creepy. But, as good as he was at being creepy, he just could not beat The Trinity Killer. I don't think this show will ever again have a Big Bad as fascinating/creepy/complex as he was. Plus, the show kind of made us sympathize with The Trinity Killer at points, or at least the show/John Lithgow managed to make him lovable even though he was so disturbingly scary. With the bad dudes in season 5, it was their acts that were so heinous and deeply disturbing and WHY DID THEY EVEN COME UP WITH THIS STORY, OMG, TRAUMATIZED FOREVER, but the characters themselves were actually pretty forgettable, the exceptions being Boyd (because he was such a freak) and Jordin (because he was the mastermind and the only one that really challenged Dexter). But, anyway, considering all the buildup happening in this season, and how long it took to actually get to Jordin, the death/capturing of Jordin was pretty anti-climactic. The feelings let out during the kill scene were good, but it's like it was all too easy or something. I don't know, I was convinced there for awhile that Jordan wasn't actually dead, but I guess he was. Also, I spent the entire last episode waiting for Lumen to die, because this is Dexter and that's just what happens to the people around him, but then she lived and I was happy that she got to do that and get her revenge, but I was like, "No, no, this is too happy an ending for Dexter. Something's going to happen. This isn't right." And then something happened, and it was quite possibly even more tragic for Dexter than my original prediction.

As for Dexter/Lumen, I never once thought it was love for them. It was this weird sense of need and belonging, and the thing that Dexter has always wanted most (even as far back as season 1) was for someone to see who he really is and accept him for it/stay with him in spite of it, to find someone just as broken as he is, and for once he found it (or so he thought), so it doesn't surprise me that Dexter mistook this for love. That didn't stop me from cringing during all the Dexter/Lumen kissy sexytimes though. I just couldn't get out of the mindset of, "BUT SHE'S NOT RITA! HOW COULD HE???" Dudes, I didn't even know that I cared about his relationship with Rita so much, but Rita was the first person to make him aware of the fact that he was capable of love, and I hated that he was thinking what he had with Lumen was deeper. I mean, maybe it was seeing as how she knew all of him, but... WHAT ABOUT RITA?

I wasn't a fan of Deb/Quinn either. I just did not dig the romances happening in this season. I enjoyed platonic Lumen/Dexter, but once they turned sexual I was like, "Blech." With Deb and Quinn, I wasn't ever interested in their platonic-ish relationship, and I was even less interested in their romantic relationship. They just didn't do anything for me, and maybe a part of me was thinking, "But Lundy was the one for her. No one will ever live up to Lundy in her eyes, nothing will ever be as intense as the love she had for that dude." Lundy made her a little crazy, to be honest. To the point where I think he's the ONLY person that Deb would ever put before Dexter. She's definitely not going to choose Quinn over Dexter, I'll tell you that. But mostly Quinn just grosses me out. I've never liked that dude. HEY, REMEMBER DOAKES? I STILL THINK HE WOULD HAVE BEEN AWESOME WITH DEB. Oh god, watching this latest season has made me all nostalgic for the days when Dexter had a worthy adversary on the police force who always kept him on his toes. Doakes >>>>>>>>>>> Quinn. Especially since Doakes was never afraid of making his suspicions of Dexter known. I REALLY, REALLY MISS DOAKES. I will never recover from his death. It's just not possible. I still can't believe they killed off such an awesome character so early in the series. It just wasn't fair. SEASON 2, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.

Anyway, overall quality of season 5 was actually pretty good. The stuff with Aster! Gosh, I love their relationship way too much. The performances were brilliant, as always. The writing was wonderful, the overall plot kept a good pace and pretty much every ep had me on the edge of my seat. This was a transition season, and unlike season 3, it handled it brilliantly, especially the "Dexter as a single dad" aspect. But, I still love season 4 the best. Damn it, John Lithgow, you've ruined me for all Dexter villains!
firthgal: (dexter)
Just finished watching season 5 of Dexter. Jonny Lee Miller was suitably creepy. I've only ever seen him in Emma and Eli Stone, and this role was so drastically different from those that I didn't even recognize him until his third or fourth episode. Just... dude was creepy. But, as good as he was at being creepy, he just could not beat The Trinity Killer. I don't think this show will ever again have a Big Bad as fascinating/creepy/complex as he was. Plus, the show kind of made us sympathize with The Trinity Killer at points, or at least the show/John Lithgow managed to make him lovable even though he was so disturbingly scary. With the bad dudes in season 5, it was their acts that were so heinous and deeply disturbing and WHY DID THEY EVEN COME UP WITH THIS STORY, OMG, TRAUMATIZED FOREVER, but the characters themselves were actually pretty forgettable, the exceptions being Boyd (because he was such a freak) and Jordin (because he was the mastermind and the only one that really challenged Dexter). But, anyway, considering all the buildup happening in this season, and how long it took to actually get to Jordin, the death/capturing of Jordin was pretty anti-climactic. The feelings let out during the kill scene were good, but it's like it was all too easy or something. I don't know, I was convinced there for awhile that Jordan wasn't actually dead, but I guess he was. Also, I spent the entire last episode waiting for Lumen to die, because this is Dexter and that's just what happens to the people around him, but then she lived and I was happy that she got to do that and get her revenge, but I was like, "No, no, this is too happy an ending for Dexter. Something's going to happen. This isn't right." And then something happened, and it was quite possibly even more tragic for Dexter than my original prediction.

As for Dexter/Lumen, I never once thought it was love for them. It was this weird sense of need and belonging, and the thing that Dexter has always wanted most (even as far back as season 1) was for someone to see who he really is and accept him for it/stay with him in spite of it, to find someone just as broken as he is, and for once he found it (or so he thought), so it doesn't surprise me that Dexter mistook this for love. That didn't stop me from cringing during all the Dexter/Lumen kissy sexytimes though. I just couldn't get out of the mindset of, "BUT SHE'S NOT RITA! HOW COULD HE???" Dudes, I didn't even know that I cared about his relationship with Rita so much, but Rita was the first person to make him aware of the fact that he was capable of love, and I hated that he was thinking what he had with Lumen was deeper. I mean, maybe it was seeing as how she knew all of him, but... WHAT ABOUT RITA?

I wasn't a fan of Deb/Quinn either. I just did not dig the romances happening in this season. I enjoyed platonic Lumen/Dexter, but once they turned sexual I was like, "Blech." With Deb and Quinn, I wasn't ever interested in their platonic-ish relationship, and I was even less interested in their romantic relationship. They just didn't do anything for me, and maybe a part of me was thinking, "But Lundy was the one for her. No one will ever live up to Lundy in her eyes, nothing will ever be as intense as the love she had for that dude." Lundy made her a little crazy, to be honest. To the point where I think he's the ONLY person that Deb would ever put before Dexter. She's definitely not going to choose Quinn over Dexter, I'll tell you that. But mostly Quinn just grosses me out. I've never liked that dude. HEY, REMEMBER DOAKES? I STILL THINK HE WOULD HAVE BEEN AWESOME WITH DEB. Oh god, watching this latest season has made me all nostalgic for the days when Dexter had a worthy adversary on the police force who always kept him on his toes. Doakes >>>>>>>>>>> Quinn. Especially since Doakes was never afraid of making his suspicions of Dexter known. I REALLY, REALLY MISS DOAKES. I will never recover from his death. It's just not possible. I still can't believe they killed off such an awesome character so early in the series. It just wasn't fair. SEASON 2, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.

Anyway, overall quality of season 5 was actually pretty good. The stuff with Aster! Gosh, I love their relationship way too much. The performances were brilliant, as always. The writing was wonderful, the overall plot kept a good pace and pretty much every ep had me on the edge of my seat. This was a transition season, and unlike season 3, it handled it brilliantly, especially the "Dexter as a single dad" aspect. But, I still love season 4 the best. Damn it, John Lithgow, you've ruined me for all Dexter villains!
firthgal: (ksw - iris)
Just finished watching the last ep of Mary Stayed Out All Night. You know, the bad part about following a K-drama as it airs, besides waiting for subs, is that I feel so darn empty once the run of the series is over. I really, really enjoyed this fluff fest of a show and I am going to miss it so very much. MAE-RI! MU-KYUL! CHEESY SONGS! JUNG-IN ANGST! SEO JOON BEING CRAZY! THE ANNOYING PARENTS WHOSE STORYLINES WENT ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE! I'm going to miss it all. Also, I was really proud of this show for actually using its last episode. Too many dramas have a tendency to wrap almost everything up in ep 15, which then leaves ep 16 without any climax, so then they are just planning a wedding or some nonsense, or else dramas will do the opposite and save EVERYTHING for the last episode and they'll shove too much in there and it ends up feeling rushed. K-dramas just suck at last episodes, basically, but this drama was doing really well until about the last 15 or 20 minutes, but still, better last ep than most k-dramas. It had an exciting climax and things got wrapped up pretty well, but it still kind of suffered from a dull ending in that last bit. I don't know, I guess it's just a given that k-dramas will have either a very dull ending or a very WTF ending, no matter how good the rest of the series was. Even IRIS, the drama that I hold most dear, had a very WTF ending.

Oh, speaking of IRIS, I've watched the first two eps of Athena: Goddess of War, and... well, I am not loving it as much as I thought I would. While I think that the action is much more kickass than it was in IRIS, and the music is beautiful, and the cinematography is awesome, the show suffers in the story department. The thing I loved about IRIS was that right from the start it had this very involved story that managed to get to your emotions and made you fall in mad love with the characters, and in addition to that it had the conspiracy plotline running through it that kept the show from getting too heavy on the romance stuff. I loved the good guys, but I loved the bad guys even more (who eventually became the good guys). With Athena, I'm having trouble connecting with the hero. I don't know why, but he's just not resonating with me. I don't know if it's just that his story is too free of angst or if it's that he hasn't gone through the epic initiation battle that the NSS had put Hyun Joon and Sa Woo through, but I just can't seem to care about him. I do find myself intrigued by the bad guy though (Son Hyuk). The sad part is that he is doomed to die. He just is. He's bad bad bad, but he's the anguished, slightly noble kind of bad that I love. And I was immediately in love with the relationship between he and Hye In, but it's clear that the love story is going to be between Hye In and Jung Woo, which... bleh. See, if I can't bring myself to care about The Hero, then I really can't bring myself to care about his lame feelings for a kickass girl who totally belongs with The Other Guy. But it's kind of obvious that Hye In is harboring ~feelings for Son Hyuk and Sun Hyuk is too busy plotting terrorist attacks to notice, but he sometimes buys her things and talks to her about how lonely he is. CLEARLY IT'S AN EPIC ROMANCE IN THE MAKING! Or... not, because I'm sure that Hye In is bound to fall in love with Jung Woo's carefree spirit and go get 'em attitude, and that will be when Sun Hyuk realizes that he's in love with Hye In, and it will just be one big mess of a love triangle. But at least this time The Other Guy is wicked badass awesome (in IRIS, I kind of just wanted to punch Sa Woo in the face). But, yeah, I think this is one of the few K-dramas where I will not be rooting for the OTP, and will in fact be rooting for First Male Lead/Second Female Lead and Second Male Lead/First Female Lead, which is just the wrong way to ship. Anyway, I am hoping that the drama picks up in the story department, because everything else is fantastic.

Also, I've been trying to catch up on the latest season of Dexter. I decided to wait till the season was finished, because, well, I knew that waiting week to week would kill me, and boy am I glad I waited, because I watched like 5 eps in one sitting yesterday. Season 4 was so utterly perfect that I was expecting to be let down by season 5 (seriously, I don't think the show will ever be able to top The Trinity Killer), but I am actually really enjoying it. I love how Dexter is slowly realizing that some part of him is human, and that without Rita and the kids he's kind of lost. Dexter's stages of grief? So, so wonderful. And it was kind of sad how he didn't realize that he felt love for Rita until she wasn't there anymore. And, I won't lie, initially when I found out that Dexter was going to have a baby, I thought it was a bad idea. But then season 4 happened and the baby actually led to one of the greatest stories this show has ever done, and now, in season 5, Harrison is putting such a wonderful spin on Dexter's life. It's just ridiculously fun seeing him as a neurotic parent, and now he's a single parent and more neurotic than ever, and just... I love it. I love that relationship so much. On fandom secrets I've seen a lot of people commenting on how they ship Dexter/Lumen, but I just... can't. And yet I find myself shipping him with Aster? WHAT THE HELL? I DON'T EVEN... I think it was all the arguing. Or something, I don't know, but that's just wrong in every way. I also find myself thinking that the show is totally going in a Dexter/Deb direction, especially since Dexter is so vehemently against Quinn, and there was that bit where he asked Deb to be Harrison's mom, and they're being domestic together, and... well, again, so very wrong, but at least they're age appropriate. BUT WHAT IS WITH THE INCESTY VIBES ON THIS SHOW? I can't ship Dexter, I just can't, but then he has those subtexty scenes with his family members and I'm like, "Wowza!" *sigh* So wrong. But, to be fair, the only people that actually make Dexter feel human emotions are his family, so it's not completely crazy.

Anyway, I had to give myself a bit of a break from Dexter, because the stuff with Lumen where she keeps talking about the rapes, I just can't handle it. This show, man, this show makes me so paranoid whenever I watch it. I never want to leave the house because I'm convinced someone's stalking me or someone's going to kidnap me and do bad things to me and kill me and WHY DO I WATCH THIS SHOW? WHAT THE HELL? It just traumatizes me. But it's so damn good that I can't stop watching it. But rape stories are especially scary to me, and this one is intense, even though they never actually showed anything, you can feel her fear and how it destroyed her, and the way she's so descriptive in her memories... *shudder* You can feel the effects of her captivity, and that is disturbing stuff. But it's kind of interesting how she finds solace in Dexter, and how she just knew on some level that Dexter could understand what she's feeling. Of course, since Lumen's story is about revenge, I'm pretty sure she's going to end up dead, probably the last guy will kill her, and then Dexter will kill him, because that's just kind of how this show rolls. Or else she will be Dexter's downfall and he'll finally get caught. I am excited to see the last half of the season, but alas, I have to go back to work tomorrow. *sigh* My vacation was nice while it lasted.
firthgal: (ksw - iris)
Just finished watching the last ep of Mary Stayed Out All Night. You know, the bad part about following a K-drama as it airs, besides waiting for subs, is that I feel so darn empty once the run of the series is over. I really, really enjoyed this fluff fest of a show and I am going to miss it so very much. MAE-RI! MU-KYUL! CHEESY SONGS! JUNG-IN ANGST! SEO JOON BEING CRAZY! THE ANNOYING PARENTS WHOSE STORYLINES WENT ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE! I'm going to miss it all. Also, I was really proud of this show for actually using its last episode. Too many dramas have a tendency to wrap almost everything up in ep 15, which then leaves ep 16 without any climax, so then they are just planning a wedding or some nonsense, or else dramas will do the opposite and save EVERYTHING for the last episode and they'll shove too much in there and it ends up feeling rushed. K-dramas just suck at last episodes, basically, but this drama was doing really well until about the last 15 or 20 minutes, but still, better last ep than most k-dramas. It had an exciting climax and things got wrapped up pretty well, but it still kind of suffered from a dull ending in that last bit. I don't know, I guess it's just a given that k-dramas will have either a very dull ending or a very WTF ending, no matter how good the rest of the series was. Even IRIS, the drama that I hold most dear, had a very WTF ending.

Oh, speaking of IRIS, I've watched the first two eps of Athena: Goddess of War, and... well, I am not loving it as much as I thought I would. While I think that the action is much more kickass than it was in IRIS, and the music is beautiful, and the cinematography is awesome, the show suffers in the story department. The thing I loved about IRIS was that right from the start it had this very involved story that managed to get to your emotions and made you fall in mad love with the characters, and in addition to that it had the conspiracy plotline running through it that kept the show from getting too heavy on the romance stuff. I loved the good guys, but I loved the bad guys even more (who eventually became the good guys). With Athena, I'm having trouble connecting with the hero. I don't know why, but he's just not resonating with me. I don't know if it's just that his story is too free of angst or if it's that he hasn't gone through the epic initiation battle that the NSS had put Hyun Joon and Sa Woo through, but I just can't seem to care about him. I do find myself intrigued by the bad guy though (Son Hyuk). The sad part is that he is doomed to die. He just is. He's bad bad bad, but he's the anguished, slightly noble kind of bad that I love. And I was immediately in love with the relationship between he and Hye In, but it's clear that the love story is going to be between Hye In and Jung Woo, which... bleh. See, if I can't bring myself to care about The Hero, then I really can't bring myself to care about his lame feelings for a kickass girl who totally belongs with The Other Guy. But it's kind of obvious that Hye In is harboring ~feelings for Son Hyuk and Sun Hyuk is too busy plotting terrorist attacks to notice, but he sometimes buys her things and talks to her about how lonely he is. CLEARLY IT'S AN EPIC ROMANCE IN THE MAKING! Or... not, because I'm sure that Hye In is bound to fall in love with Jung Woo's carefree spirit and go get 'em attitude, and that will be when Sun Hyuk realizes that he's in love with Hye In, and it will just be one big mess of a love triangle. But at least this time The Other Guy is wicked badass awesome (in IRIS, I kind of just wanted to punch Sa Woo in the face). But, yeah, I think this is one of the few K-dramas where I will not be rooting for the OTP, and will in fact be rooting for First Male Lead/Second Female Lead and Second Male Lead/First Female Lead, which is just the wrong way to ship. Anyway, I am hoping that the drama picks up in the story department, because everything else is fantastic.

Also, I've been trying to catch up on the latest season of Dexter. I decided to wait till the season was finished, because, well, I knew that waiting week to week would kill me, and boy am I glad I waited, because I watched like 5 eps in one sitting yesterday. Season 4 was so utterly perfect that I was expecting to be let down by season 5 (seriously, I don't think the show will ever be able to top The Trinity Killer), but I am actually really enjoying it. I love how Dexter is slowly realizing that some part of him is human, and that without Rita and the kids he's kind of lost. Dexter's stages of grief? So, so wonderful. And it was kind of sad how he didn't realize that he felt love for Rita until she wasn't there anymore. And, I won't lie, initially when I found out that Dexter was going to have a baby, I thought it was a bad idea. But then season 4 happened and the baby actually led to one of the greatest stories this show has ever done, and now, in season 5, Harrison is putting such a wonderful spin on Dexter's life. It's just ridiculously fun seeing him as a neurotic parent, and now he's a single parent and more neurotic than ever, and just... I love it. I love that relationship so much. On fandom secrets I've seen a lot of people commenting on how they ship Dexter/Lumen, but I just... can't. And yet I find myself shipping him with Aster? WHAT THE HELL? I DON'T EVEN... I think it was all the arguing. Or something, I don't know, but that's just wrong in every way. I also find myself thinking that the show is totally going in a Dexter/Deb direction, especially since Dexter is so vehemently against Quinn, and there was that bit where he asked Deb to be Harrison's mom, and they're being domestic together, and... well, again, so very wrong, but at least they're age appropriate. BUT WHAT IS WITH THE INCESTY VIBES ON THIS SHOW? I can't ship Dexter, I just can't, but then he has those subtexty scenes with his family members and I'm like, "Wowza!" *sigh* So wrong. But, to be fair, the only people that actually make Dexter feel human emotions are his family, so it's not completely crazy.

Anyway, I had to give myself a bit of a break from Dexter, because the stuff with Lumen where she keeps talking about the rapes, I just can't handle it. This show, man, this show makes me so paranoid whenever I watch it. I never want to leave the house because I'm convinced someone's stalking me or someone's going to kidnap me and do bad things to me and kill me and WHY DO I WATCH THIS SHOW? WHAT THE HELL? It just traumatizes me. But it's so damn good that I can't stop watching it. But rape stories are especially scary to me, and this one is intense, even though they never actually showed anything, you can feel her fear and how it destroyed her, and the way she's so descriptive in her memories... *shudder* You can feel the effects of her captivity, and that is disturbing stuff. But it's kind of interesting how she finds solace in Dexter, and how she just knew on some level that Dexter could understand what she's feeling. Of course, since Lumen's story is about revenge, I'm pretty sure she's going to end up dead, probably the last guy will kill her, and then Dexter will kill him, because that's just kind of how this show rolls. Or else she will be Dexter's downfall and he'll finally get caught. I am excited to see the last half of the season, but alas, I have to go back to work tomorrow. *sigh* My vacation was nice while it lasted.
firthgal: (dexter - blood)
Fact: I was way spoiled about the ending to this season, and yet I still cried. Not like I cried at the end of season 1, but still, I didn't think this one would affect me since I had already watched the bit on YouTube awhile back without knowing the context (I also watched the Thanksgiving scene awhile back, which was what convinced me that I needed to get back to Dexter, but it took the Golden Globes to actually make me take action). Anyway, wow. WOW. Wow. The ending to Hello, Dexter Morgan was probably my favorite thing ever, because it was creepy and suspenseful and it had my heart pounding and it was so, so ridiculous (and god, his face when he was looking at all the pics! Pure pride). The ending to the finale also had my heart pounding, but probably only because I knew what was coming and had been waiting the whole episode for it to happen. The Thanksgiving episode was epic all around. Basically, anytime John Lithgow was on my screen, something amazingly awesome happened. He blew me away in this. Just, the way he so easily switched between personas and whatnot, the way he looked so freaking scary every time he got into control freak mode, the conflicting emotions, he was amazing. And freaky. And if I hadn't grown up knowing him as Dick Solomon, he would probably be giving me nightmares tonight.

The character development with Dexter was so beautifully done. It's been sloppy in the past, but this was so organic and beautiful and right, and in the end kind of heartbreaking.

Debra was amazing. She had a lot of emotional stuff to deal with and it got to me in every scene, particularly anything having to do with Lundy. *cries* Her most beautiful scenes came from her interaction with Dexter, though, just as it usually does. I love the Dexter/Deb relationship so very much. I especially loved Dexter's line about being lost if Deb ever died. And then she pretty much told him the same thing later, that she wouldn't be who she is without Dexter.

I'm pretty sure that Quinn is in love with Deb. Like, really, really in love. But maybe not. But I'm pretty sure he is. I skipped most of season 3, but I remember him having a thing for her in the few eps that I did see of that season, but they were very much platonic partners in this season. Still though, I think he's in love with her.

Angel/La Guerta was probably the only boring thing about this season, but La Guerta's storylines have always bored me, so that's nothing new. I think the show was just trying to give us something peaceful amidst all the badness going on, but it often caused me to go, "Come on, come on, get back to Arthur." So, I could have done without it, but I didn't not like it. It just seemed out of place when pretty much everything else was full-on suspense. Even the Rita/Dexter scenes had more going on than they usually do.

I adored Mitsuka this season. I usually can't stand him, but he was so utterly lovable, particularly in the Thanksgiving ep and the one directly after it.

Fathers and daughters. Everything's always about Daddy, isn't it? Psh. It's like this season was made specifically for me. Old guy/young girl canon couple that also happens to be mentor/student, a super dramatic father/daughter story, BABIES, slashy subtext, a totally pathetic yet badass villain... I'm sure there was more. Because seriously, I loved just about everything.

In conclusion, if you are like me and gave up on Dexter during season 3, WATCH SEASON 4. YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT. I got by perfectly fine without watching season 3, so definitely just skip to the Lithgow, because he's awesome, and definitely the most interesting adversary that Dexter has ever had.

And now I fear that I am getting a giant crush on John Lithgow, because I want MORE and I am at the point where I want to rent 3rd Rock From the Sun and watch it all from the beginning even though I saw it as it originally aired and watched it in syndication. I do not need a new obsession, dudes. I do not need it. Especially since I wanted to hang onto Anthony Head for awhile longer. *sigh*

Oh! Speaking of the Head, he has officially turned into Christopher Walken:



I can't even tell the difference anymore.

Okay, maybe I can. But only because Tony's neck is super sexy )

Er... perhaps I don't have to worry about my Anthony Head obsession dissipating.
firthgal: (dexter - blood)
Fact: I was way spoiled about the ending to this season, and yet I still cried. Not like I cried at the end of season 1, but still, I didn't think this one would affect me since I had already watched the bit on YouTube awhile back without knowing the context (I also watched the Thanksgiving scene awhile back, which was what convinced me that I needed to get back to Dexter, but it took the Golden Globes to actually make me take action). Anyway, wow. WOW. Wow. The ending to Hello, Dexter Morgan was probably my favorite thing ever, because it was creepy and suspenseful and it had my heart pounding and it was so, so ridiculous (and god, his face when he was looking at all the pics! Pure pride). The ending to the finale also had my heart pounding, but probably only because I knew what was coming and had been waiting the whole episode for it to happen. The Thanksgiving episode was epic all around. Basically, anytime John Lithgow was on my screen, something amazingly awesome happened. He blew me away in this. Just, the way he so easily switched between personas and whatnot, the way he looked so freaking scary every time he got into control freak mode, the conflicting emotions, he was amazing. And freaky. And if I hadn't grown up knowing him as Dick Solomon, he would probably be giving me nightmares tonight.

The character development with Dexter was so beautifully done. It's been sloppy in the past, but this was so organic and beautiful and right, and in the end kind of heartbreaking.

Debra was amazing. She had a lot of emotional stuff to deal with and it got to me in every scene, particularly anything having to do with Lundy. *cries* Her most beautiful scenes came from her interaction with Dexter, though, just as it usually does. I love the Dexter/Deb relationship so very much. I especially loved Dexter's line about being lost if Deb ever died. And then she pretty much told him the same thing later, that she wouldn't be who she is without Dexter.

I'm pretty sure that Quinn is in love with Deb. Like, really, really in love. But maybe not. But I'm pretty sure he is. I skipped most of season 3, but I remember him having a thing for her in the few eps that I did see of that season, but they were very much platonic partners in this season. Still though, I think he's in love with her.

Angel/La Guerta was probably the only boring thing about this season, but La Guerta's storylines have always bored me, so that's nothing new. I think the show was just trying to give us something peaceful amidst all the badness going on, but it often caused me to go, "Come on, come on, get back to Arthur." So, I could have done without it, but I didn't not like it. It just seemed out of place when pretty much everything else was full-on suspense. Even the Rita/Dexter scenes had more going on than they usually do.

I adored Mitsuka this season. I usually can't stand him, but he was so utterly lovable, particularly in the Thanksgiving ep and the one directly after it.

Fathers and daughters. Everything's always about Daddy, isn't it? Psh. It's like this season was made specifically for me. Old guy/young girl canon couple that also happens to be mentor/student, a super dramatic father/daughter story, BABIES, slashy subtext, a totally pathetic yet badass villain... I'm sure there was more. Because seriously, I loved just about everything.

In conclusion, if you are like me and gave up on Dexter during season 3, WATCH SEASON 4. YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT. I got by perfectly fine without watching season 3, so definitely just skip to the Lithgow, because he's awesome, and definitely the most interesting adversary that Dexter has ever had.

And now I fear that I am getting a giant crush on John Lithgow, because I want MORE and I am at the point where I want to rent 3rd Rock From the Sun and watch it all from the beginning even though I saw it as it originally aired and watched it in syndication. I do not need a new obsession, dudes. I do not need it. Especially since I wanted to hang onto Anthony Head for awhile longer. *sigh*

Oh! Speaking of the Head, he has officially turned into Christopher Walken:



I can't even tell the difference anymore.

Okay, maybe I can. But only because Tony's neck is super sexy )

Er... perhaps I don't have to worry about my Anthony Head obsession dissipating.
firthgal: (dexter - dexter trinity)
Is it wrong that I am totally shipping Dexter/Arthur?


"With you I feel... focused, like I have a sense of purpose. Certainty. I need you."


"I... I have nothing to give you."

Come on. COME ON. But that's not all:


"And there's nobody else?"


"You're the one Arthur."




"The only one."



They are obviously a match made in Hell. Seriously though, I so love the messed up mentor/student vibe going on with them. And even though Arthur is a temperamental murdering bastard, he's... kind of... lovable? As a character, I mean. He's just so pathetic, and you know how I love my pathetic, morally gray characters.

Anyway, yesterday I was trying to sneak in episodes while my nephew was glued to the Disney Channel and my niece was napping, and when I came upon the bludgeoning scene, I actually said out loud, "OH GOD! GYAHH! Ouch," and I had to look away from the screen, and that's never happened while watching Dexter before. The violence on the show is so... er... normal that it just doesn't seem to affect me, I guess because it's usually done by Dexter and everyone that he kills is unsympathetic to the audience, but this bludgeoning scene, holy crap. They didn't even really show anything but the blood, but you hear the screaming and the crunching and you see Arthur's face and just... OH MY GOD. That was rather intense. Basically, John Lithgow totally deserved his Golden Globe.

I should be out enjoying the beautiful weather instead of watching Dexter, but see, the thing I forgot about Dexter is that it makes me completely paranoid about each and every person that shows up at the track while I'm there, and I start thinking, "Oh my god, are they stalking me? They're going to kidnap me and kill me, aren't they?" And this, my friends, is why I should never watch psychological thrillers. And yet I do it anyway.
firthgal: (dexter - dexter trinity)
Is it wrong that I am totally shipping Dexter/Arthur?


"With you I feel... focused, like I have a sense of purpose. Certainty. I need you."


"I... I have nothing to give you."

Come on. COME ON. But that's not all:


"And there's nobody else?"


"You're the one Arthur."




"The only one."



They are obviously a match made in Hell. Seriously though, I so love the messed up mentor/student vibe going on with them. And even though Arthur is a temperamental murdering bastard, he's... kind of... lovable? As a character, I mean. He's just so pathetic, and you know how I love my pathetic, morally gray characters.

Anyway, yesterday I was trying to sneak in episodes while my nephew was glued to the Disney Channel and my niece was napping, and when I came upon the bludgeoning scene, I actually said out loud, "OH GOD! GYAHH! Ouch," and I had to look away from the screen, and that's never happened while watching Dexter before. The violence on the show is so... er... normal that it just doesn't seem to affect me, I guess because it's usually done by Dexter and everyone that he kills is unsympathetic to the audience, but this bludgeoning scene, holy crap. They didn't even really show anything but the blood, but you hear the screaming and the crunching and you see Arthur's face and just... OH MY GOD. That was rather intense. Basically, John Lithgow totally deserved his Golden Globe.

I should be out enjoying the beautiful weather instead of watching Dexter, but see, the thing I forgot about Dexter is that it makes me completely paranoid about each and every person that shows up at the track while I'm there, and I start thinking, "Oh my god, are they stalking me? They're going to kidnap me and kill me, aren't they?" And this, my friends, is why I should never watch psychological thrillers. And yet I do it anyway.

Holy...

Jan. 18th, 2010 02:41 pm
firthgal: (Andy - OMG)
So, I am now 4 episodes into the 4th season of Dexter. You know how I've always said that Lundy/Deb was the one old guy/young girl pairing that I just didn't dig? I WAS WRONG. I AM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH THEM. DAMN THIS SHOW FOR DOING WHAT IT JUST DID TO ME. I didn't like them in season 2 because the relationship felt way too uneven to me in terms of power, but they are so beautifully balanced and angsty in this season. And I hate that I am rooting for them because Anton is so, so lovely and SO much better for Deb, but, damn it, Lundy has this hold on her that she will never shake. They both get off on the same exact things and just share minds with each other. But Lundy is kind of a douche. But she loves him! So, yeah, they made me get wrapped up in that ship, and I may have to reevaluate their scenes in season 2. spoilers )

Also, John Lithgow is really, really, really creepy. Especially when he's naked. :o

Holy...

Jan. 18th, 2010 02:41 pm
firthgal: (Andy - OMG)
So, I am now 4 episodes into the 4th season of Dexter. You know how I've always said that Lundy/Deb was the one old guy/young girl pairing that I just didn't dig? I WAS WRONG. I AM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH THEM. DAMN THIS SHOW FOR DOING WHAT IT JUST DID TO ME. I didn't like them in season 2 because the relationship felt way too uneven to me in terms of power, but they are so beautifully balanced and angsty in this season. And I hate that I am rooting for them because Anton is so, so lovely and SO much better for Deb, but, damn it, Lundy has this hold on her that she will never shake. They both get off on the same exact things and just share minds with each other. But Lundy is kind of a douche. But she loves him! So, yeah, they made me get wrapped up in that ship, and I may have to reevaluate their scenes in season 2. spoilers )

Also, John Lithgow is really, really, really creepy. Especially when he's naked. :o
firthgal: (giles - perplexed vestiness)
Is it possible to follow season 4 of Dexter without having watched season 3? I think I stopped on season 3 around the 4th episode because it was boring the crap out of me, but season 4 looks epic. I uh... I just don't want to suffer through season 3 if it's not necessary.
firthgal: (giles - perplexed vestiness)
Is it possible to follow season 4 of Dexter without having watched season 3? I think I stopped on season 3 around the 4th episode because it was boring the crap out of me, but season 4 looks epic. I uh... I just don't want to suffer through season 3 if it's not necessary.

Mmmmmmm...

Sep. 8th, 2008 07:48 pm
firthgal: (Default)


Well hello there, Mr. Meade.  Do me.  Do me now, please.

In other news, I watched the leaked season 3 premiere of Dexter, and, dudes, it was awesome.  Nothing mind-blowing or anything, but definitely on par with seasons 1 and 2, and I'm excited to see where they take the characters this season.  They've put a beautiful new spin on Dexter himself, which I am enjoying.  Also, JIMMY SMITTS!  I don't know why I'm excited about that.  I'm not even a fan of anything that he was in.  Except for that movie where Ellen Barkin was really a dude.  That movie was awesome.  Um... anyway, he's pretty moving on Dexter.

A few quick thoughts about the ep )

Okay, Gossip Girls is about to start.  By the way, having to choose between GG and T:TSCC?  Not fun.  But T:TSCC is on Hulu, so GG wins.

Mmmmmmm...

Sep. 8th, 2008 07:48 pm
firthgal: (Default)


Well hello there, Mr. Meade.  Do me.  Do me now, please.

In other news, I watched the leaked season 3 premiere of Dexter, and, dudes, it was awesome.  Nothing mind-blowing or anything, but definitely on par with seasons 1 and 2, and I'm excited to see where they take the characters this season.  They've put a beautiful new spin on Dexter himself, which I am enjoying.  Also, JIMMY SMITTS!  I don't know why I'm excited about that.  I'm not even a fan of anything that he was in.  Except for that movie where Ellen Barkin was really a dude.  That movie was awesome.  Um... anyway, he's pretty moving on Dexter.

A few quick thoughts about the ep )

Okay, Gossip Girls is about to start.  By the way, having to choose between GG and T:TSCC?  Not fun.  But T:TSCC is on Hulu, so GG wins.
firthgal: (andy frolf)
So I had to go to that far away bank that's by Target again for the business, and I had mentioned to my mom over the weekend that I wanted the new Phil Vassar CD (Prayer of a Common Man), so she left me a $20 bill (score!) of which I was only to use for that CD, but I just couldn't resist buying the new Gary Allan CD (Living Hard) too, because he has invaded my heart (damn you, Gary!).  My mom didn't care though (she's too easy to take advantage of sometimes).  And, OMG, GARY'S ALBUM IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!  I LOVE IT!  I think I love it even more than Phil's album.  So now I bring you the best songs off of both albums, because they are SO AWESOME!  Seriously, I love these guys.  Well, obviously I love Phil since I've seen him in concert 3 times (and he autographed my T-shirt at one of them!!!), but Gary is so next on my MUST SEE IN CONCERT list.  It would be so freaking awesome if he'd come to the pavillion (he'd probably go to JPJ arena though if he came through here, which sucks because JPJ won't sell the floor seats to the public, whereas the pavillion is half the price and I can get extremely close to the stage).  Anyway, here are my favorites:

Gary Allan (in addition to Watching Airplanes and Learning How to Bend):

We Touched the Sun
Like It's a Bad Thing
As Long As Your Looking Back
Yesterday's Rain (this one killed me)
Trying to Matter

Phil Vassar

This is My Life
Love is a Beautiful Thing
Prayer of a Common Man
It's Only Love
Let me Love you Tonight
Baby Rocks
Crazy Life (this one's my #1 favorite)

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And now for the meme that is spreading through my f-list like wildfire:

The Shows I'm Currently Watching That my Friends May or May Not be Watching

1. Desperate Housewives - The Why on Earth Am I Watching This Craziness Oh God I Can't Tear My Eyes Away From it Show
2. Brothers & Sisters - The Oh the Drama Kills Me Show, recently renamed The Justin and Rebecca Show
3. House - The House is Sexy When He's a Dick Show, also occasionally the House and Cameron Eyesex Show
4. Boston Legal - The OMG JAMES SPADER IS GIVING ME MULTIPLE ORGASMS Show, aka The Denny and Alan Totally Love Each Other Show
5. Private Practice - The Cooper and Violet Show
6. Dirty Sexy Money - The OMG, Why Am I So Attracted to Brian Darling Show?
7. Ugly Betty - The Daniel and Betty Better End Up Together Or Bitch is Gonna Hurt Somebody Show
8. The Office - The Andy Bernard Variety Show, also The Michael and Dwight Should Run Away Together and Get Married and Live Happily Ever After on the Beet Farm Show
9. 30 Rock - The Jack and Liz Totally Want to Do Each Other Show, or The Jack and Liz are Total Soulmates so Tina Fey Can Just Suck It Show
10. Life - The OMG, DAMIAN LEWIS IS GIVING ME EVEN MORE ORGASMS THAN JAMES SPADER Show, also The Crews and Reese Are So Adorable and Kickass Show
11. Monk - The I'm Only Still Watching This For Old Time's Sake and I'm Still Bitter About Sharona Show
12. Psych - The Lassiter and Juliet are in Looooooooove Show, also The Shawn and Gus Can Never, Ever Be Separated From Each Other Show
13. Dr. Who - The Man David Tennant is Beautiful Show, aka This is So Corny That I Must Watch and Mock Show
14. Dexter - The Used to Be Dexter Morgan Show That Turned Into The Doakes Wants Debra Show And Then Changed to Oh Debra You Suck for Wrecking My Doakes/Debra Dreams so Now I'm All About the Doakes Only Which Then Turned Into *sob* What Am I Going to Do Without My Doakes??? Show.  Whew, that's a mouthful, isn't it?  I'm surprised that show is still around.
15. Friday Night Lights - The Coach and Mrs. Coach Show, also The Landry is Wicked Awesome Show

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